I'm really tired of being fat now. I've been the fat kid for way to long. Arent fat kids supposed to grow up to be amazingly stunning and sexy? Why has this not happened to me? It needs to happen to me.
My goal is to get down to 160 my the end of May. Current fatness: 215 lbs. Thats 55 lbs I need to melt off in time for bikini season....*looks at self*...this is gonna take a while. I havent been 160 lbs since Elementary school.
Considering people tell me I "wear (the fatness) well" and the'd "never guessed (I) weighed that much", I'm gonna list my starting measurements too just so you get a good visual as to how much work needs to be done.
Pants: size 16
Tops: unisex - medium; womens - large; fitted - x-large
Dresses: large, 14
Bust: 44.5 in
waist: 38 in
hips: 49 in (in need of serious slimming)
Wednesday, October 12, 2011
Tuesday, October 11, 2011
o.m.g.
So I might be pregnant. Maybe. I did the Clorox thing where if it fizzes then your pregnant a few weeks ago and nothing happen. Today i did it and it wouldnt stop fizzing. I bought a test and took it but it was negative. I'm waiting till tomorrow morning to take another one. I dont know what to think. Oh dear....
Names are already picked out tho for both boy and girl. But I need a house with a nursery to decorate!!!!
Names are already picked out tho for both boy and girl. But I need a house with a nursery to decorate!!!!
Monday, October 10, 2011
Im so fat :(
I am such a fatty. Thats not even an exaggeration. Its embarrassing. I want to cry. My boyfriend is almost a foot taller than me and only weighs 3 more pounds than I do. I've asked a personal trainer to give me some sort of meal plan, but she told me I wasnt eating enough. I dont want to make myself eat when i'm not hungry. Thats asking for an eating disorder, dontcha think? I'm just tired of being fat. I need to lose about 55 pounds to be concidered normal according to the bmi. Help Me. Supplements. Meal Plans. Exercise Routines. anything. I'm desperate. :( weighing 215 pounds is not fun :'''( This is the only picture I could find of me alone thats a body shot.
Saturday, October 8, 2011
"Hard times are some of the best times"
Thank you delicious bottle of Mike's Hard Black Cherry Lemonade for that insightful piece of wisdom. The past few days have been a mix of hard and Mike's hard. Justin and I received an opportunity to rent-to-own 18 acres of land with a cabin, barn, and single-wide trailer for $335 a month. Bad news is its still in Henry County and its right next to his mom (also refered to as "psycho mommy"). Overall, this looks like a good thing for us. Only catch is that the first payment is due next week (see previous blog concerning lack of funds). I guess what's meant to be will find its way...
Experienced my first hangover this morning. How is it that I can down Vodka, Whisky, or Tequilla all day long and never have a hangover, but If I drink 3 little bottles of Mike's I pay for it with aches and nausea? Weird. Until this morning I've just woken up still buzzed. Now I will think twice about what I drink. Limiting myself to 1 bottle of Mike's tonight. I think tonight my blog inspiration will come from what I am currently drinking, listening to, and wearing (get your mind out of the gutter!)
Currently listening to Sara Evans, which makes life a little better. Her voice is so pretty and life becomes a little easier when you're able to sing about it. No Place That Far reminds me of me and Justin. He is my world, even when he's 3 hours away. He works so hard to pay both of our bills. It makes me feel bad for putting all that responsibilty on him. I've never had to depend on a guy like that before.
I really hope I get a job soon so that I can contribute to our soon-to-be-joint checking account. I bank with SunTrust, who is taking away their free checking option in November. The only way to avoid paying a $7/m fee is to keep $500 in the bank everyday or have direct deposit. I;m not working at the moment so I cant do either of those. Also they're gonna charge $5 amonth for debit card use (which I depend on).
Currently wearing white shorts and a long-sleeve, v-neck, self tie-dyed shirt. Here in the mountains it will be cold one day and warm the next so I put summer on the bottom and winter on top. lol. I think this is like the 4th day in a row that I have worn tie-die. And what's sad is I still have more clean tie-dyed creations at my disposal for the next few days. I just love tie-dye. It's so colorful and semi-unpredictable. I hate having to wait 24 hours to wash it though. I'm not a patient woman.
Welp that pretty much sums it up this Saturday night. My lovely fiance is at a party without me, lucky dog. So I will set here all alone with my roommate drinking my Mike's and listening to Sara Evans...and wearing tie-dye
Experienced my first hangover this morning. How is it that I can down Vodka, Whisky, or Tequilla all day long and never have a hangover, but If I drink 3 little bottles of Mike's I pay for it with aches and nausea? Weird. Until this morning I've just woken up still buzzed. Now I will think twice about what I drink. Limiting myself to 1 bottle of Mike's tonight. I think tonight my blog inspiration will come from what I am currently drinking, listening to, and wearing (get your mind out of the gutter!)
Currently listening to Sara Evans, which makes life a little better. Her voice is so pretty and life becomes a little easier when you're able to sing about it. No Place That Far reminds me of me and Justin. He is my world, even when he's 3 hours away. He works so hard to pay both of our bills. It makes me feel bad for putting all that responsibilty on him. I've never had to depend on a guy like that before.
I really hope I get a job soon so that I can contribute to our soon-to-be-joint checking account. I bank with SunTrust, who is taking away their free checking option in November. The only way to avoid paying a $7/m fee is to keep $500 in the bank everyday or have direct deposit. I;m not working at the moment so I cant do either of those. Also they're gonna charge $5 amonth for debit card use (which I depend on).
Currently wearing white shorts and a long-sleeve, v-neck, self tie-dyed shirt. Here in the mountains it will be cold one day and warm the next so I put summer on the bottom and winter on top. lol. I think this is like the 4th day in a row that I have worn tie-die. And what's sad is I still have more clean tie-dyed creations at my disposal for the next few days. I just love tie-dye. It's so colorful and semi-unpredictable. I hate having to wait 24 hours to wash it though. I'm not a patient woman.
Welp that pretty much sums it up this Saturday night. My lovely fiance is at a party without me, lucky dog. So I will set here all alone with my roommate drinking my Mike's and listening to Sara Evans...and wearing tie-dye
Wednesday, October 5, 2011
kjhdbiweygci8uybg
yep, thats the kind of mood im in right now. "Why?" you ask. Well:
1: My laptop has locked me out of it due to me changing the password while intoxicated. I remember what it was supposed to be changed to, but its nt accepting it. So now I have to spend $20 on password reset software to get back into it. kjhdbiweygci8uybg
2: I have 0 money and about $100 of bills due within the next 5 days. I do not understand why my school ave all the workstudy jobs to freshman this year. I feel like it was promised to me and I filled out th application, give me a job or just my $2000 would be nice too :) kjhdbiweygci8uybg
3: And to top it all off I have to deal with "that one bitch." Its funny how everyone has "that one bitch." Well mine is my boyfriends ex. She broke up with him and now that were all happy and perfect, she wants im back. She's even saying he slept with her. Honey, he aint that stupid. Enough said. kjhdbiweygci8uybg
4: Oh, and when I asked my mother to spot me like $30, because ya know I let her borrow it over the summer and she has yet to pay me back, she told me no because of who I'm dating. She said for me to get him to give me the money. Ofcourse he did, because he's amazing and spoils me whenever possible. Its funny how my parents complained that he couldnt give me the things I need and that I deserve better, yet he is the one supporting me through college right now. And when I have money, he doesnt ask for it. When I do pay for stuff he promises and swears to pay me back. My parents ALWAYS ask for money. kjhdbiweygci8uybg
So there are a lot of factors contributing to my mood of kjhdbiweygci8uybg. But the sun is shining, I just finished talking to my love who is working his butt off and putting 90-100% of the earnings into my bank account, my roommate is letting me borrow her laptop when needed, and I should be able to get into my computer by tomorrow or Friday at the latest :) Also God loves me and my tie-dye shirts turned out pretty awesome :) :)
1: My laptop has locked me out of it due to me changing the password while intoxicated. I remember what it was supposed to be changed to, but its nt accepting it. So now I have to spend $20 on password reset software to get back into it. kjhdbiweygci8uybg
2: I have 0 money and about $100 of bills due within the next 5 days. I do not understand why my school ave all the workstudy jobs to freshman this year. I feel like it was promised to me and I filled out th application, give me a job or just my $2000 would be nice too :) kjhdbiweygci8uybg
3: And to top it all off I have to deal with "that one bitch." Its funny how everyone has "that one bitch." Well mine is my boyfriends ex. She broke up with him and now that were all happy and perfect, she wants im back. She's even saying he slept with her. Honey, he aint that stupid. Enough said. kjhdbiweygci8uybg
4: Oh, and when I asked my mother to spot me like $30, because ya know I let her borrow it over the summer and she has yet to pay me back, she told me no because of who I'm dating. She said for me to get him to give me the money. Ofcourse he did, because he's amazing and spoils me whenever possible. Its funny how my parents complained that he couldnt give me the things I need and that I deserve better, yet he is the one supporting me through college right now. And when I have money, he doesnt ask for it. When I do pay for stuff he promises and swears to pay me back. My parents ALWAYS ask for money. kjhdbiweygci8uybg
So there are a lot of factors contributing to my mood of kjhdbiweygci8uybg. But the sun is shining, I just finished talking to my love who is working his butt off and putting 90-100% of the earnings into my bank account, my roommate is letting me borrow her laptop when needed, and I should be able to get into my computer by tomorrow or Friday at the latest :) Also God loves me and my tie-dye shirts turned out pretty awesome :) :)
Saturday, September 17, 2011
Colder Weather
It feels like late fall/early winter today. It's depressing. I dont see how anyone could like the colder months. All its good for is cuddling up with the one you love, and you can do that when its in the upper 60's just as well as you can when its in the low 40's. Seeing as my love is about 3 hours away, I'm stuck inside cuddling with my body pillow. It doesnt quite have the same appeal.
Cold weather strips you of your energy. You dont want to go out and enjoy the nice breeze or bask in the sun or even drive around town with the windows down. No, you're stuck inside bundled up in all the blankets you brought back to school with you. And since you didnt think it would get this cold before you went home in October, you only brought one blanket. Not to mention the heat doesnt work yet because the whole building is still set on AC.
I hate when it starts getting cold. I mean its all fine and dandy when your celebrating Halloween, Thanksgiving, and Christmas. Thats when your supposed to cuddle by the fire sipping hot tea or hot cocoa. Unfortunately the cold doesnt not leave when you take down the Christmas decor. I feel as though I would not despise winter temps if they truly came and went with the holiday season. But instead it stays bitter untill well after Spring Break.
I havent even mentioned snow yet. Everyone always says they love winter because they can make snowmen and go sledding and have snowball fights. I like snow only when its falling form the sky. Let it fall and settle so I can take pretty pictures and then make it go away. Classes arent even cancled when it snows, so it's one big death trap trying to make you cold and wet which brings you back to wrapping up in your room trying to conserve your body heat.
And there's something about cold weather and snow that make relationships go to Hell in a hand-basket. If you remember the snow-pocalypse of 2009-10, then you know what I'm talking about. EVERYBODY broke up that year. Not a single relationship was safe. We all got severe cabin fever and went crazy. But as soon as it started warming up again, love was back in the air.
I really hope that doesnt happen this year. I'm afraid it might since winter has began to show early this year. I'd really like it if this year was a repeat of last year. Last year it started to get cold around November, snowed on Christmas day, and by the end of January there was the nice smell of Spring. Would it be too much to ask to have two perfect years in a row? I sure hope not.
Cold weather strips you of your energy. You dont want to go out and enjoy the nice breeze or bask in the sun or even drive around town with the windows down. No, you're stuck inside bundled up in all the blankets you brought back to school with you. And since you didnt think it would get this cold before you went home in October, you only brought one blanket. Not to mention the heat doesnt work yet because the whole building is still set on AC.
I hate when it starts getting cold. I mean its all fine and dandy when your celebrating Halloween, Thanksgiving, and Christmas. Thats when your supposed to cuddle by the fire sipping hot tea or hot cocoa. Unfortunately the cold doesnt not leave when you take down the Christmas decor. I feel as though I would not despise winter temps if they truly came and went with the holiday season. But instead it stays bitter untill well after Spring Break.
I havent even mentioned snow yet. Everyone always says they love winter because they can make snowmen and go sledding and have snowball fights. I like snow only when its falling form the sky. Let it fall and settle so I can take pretty pictures and then make it go away. Classes arent even cancled when it snows, so it's one big death trap trying to make you cold and wet which brings you back to wrapping up in your room trying to conserve your body heat.
And there's something about cold weather and snow that make relationships go to Hell in a hand-basket. If you remember the snow-pocalypse of 2009-10, then you know what I'm talking about. EVERYBODY broke up that year. Not a single relationship was safe. We all got severe cabin fever and went crazy. But as soon as it started warming up again, love was back in the air.
I really hope that doesnt happen this year. I'm afraid it might since winter has began to show early this year. I'd really like it if this year was a repeat of last year. Last year it started to get cold around November, snowed on Christmas day, and by the end of January there was the nice smell of Spring. Would it be too much to ask to have two perfect years in a row? I sure hope not.
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